by Sally
(New Zealand)
I read that it meant my attitude to myself. I agree. I have a disability and been told I was crazy all my life and discovered by medical that I wasn't. This has impacted on my self-confidence to ever have an intimate relationship again. I have also tended to attract those that do demean me, which of course mirrors my own internal beliefs that I can't get over. Fear takes over now and I'm regularly told by many negative things. One elderly lady was asked by people on why she was friends with me. I found this demeaning and because of the past family attitudes to me I can't see myself as a worthwhile partner. People know of my different thinking and I am often blamed as the cause of their negative behaviour.
Thanks Sally